Bursting with JUBILATION!!!!!!!!

"Change is created by those whose imaginations are bigger than their circumstances"
Author - Unknown



Now you have heard and seen the chaos in my blogs - and the reach for peace and blocking all drama!

Well yau'll I feel like poison and toxins have been released from my soul as of lately and it feels so good that if i were any happier I'd split right into a twin!!!



God is...

and Doesn't ever fail!!!



Be encouraged and be conscience of the intention and the words we speak as they are so powerful. When we say we are going to do something, we set energy in motion. When we fail to act or complete our intention, we drain our energy. We lose our power.


We would be wise to choose our words carefully -- to really mean what we say and to honour the commitments we have made. So that we are not responsible for draining the energy of others...



as i continue to work on my own shit - i can at the very least say on a daily bases that i have a clear conscious and followed my spirit/inner voice.

last straw - this is it!

A powerfully portrayed story told with raw honesty and love...

Experience tears and laughter walking through the life and times of Tangie Waters, a resilient daddy’s girl who grew up in the suburbs of Chicago. This attention-grabbing tale of a young woman’s determination to survive leaves one questioning their own maturity. Despite her monstrous ego, Tangie finds humility through her faith in God and the wisdom of her grandparents as she struggles to be at peace while overcoming constant setbacks, family woes, and the complexities of being a single mother.

Flowing through life with torrent music Pretty Monster is an alluring tale that speaks to young women everywhere; from the inner cities to the tree lined streets of the American suburbs

The synopsis from hell!!!!

After a 100 revisions - i am tired of this bi^%$!!!!!!!!!!

A powerful portrayed story told with raw honesty and love...

Experience tears and laughter walking through the life and times of Tangie Waters, a resilient daddy’s girl who grew up in the suburbs of Chicago. The attention-grabbing tale of a young lady’s determination to survive that leaves one questioning their own maturity. Despite her monstrous ego, Tangie is guided by faith in God and the wisdom of her grandparents as she struggles to be at peace while faced with constant setbacks, family woes, and the complexities of being a single mother. Flowing through life with torrent music Pretty Monster is an alluring tale that speaks to young women from the inner city to the tree lined streets of the American suburbs.

Dear Mama...

Grandmothers are the real G's!!!!

a motherless child is far worse than a fatherless one...

to all the Mothers that did what they didn''t have to do!

I sat there for almost an hour and no one came in as I made peace with Mama and God. This was the end. I bent over her face and I remember thinking even now at age 73 and on her death bed, how she looked 45 at the most. She was beautiful to the end. I kissed her face and it was ice cold and rubbery feeling. Something was wrong, oxygen was being pumped into a corpse is what I think, but the machines were on anyhow. I silently prayed and said bye to what was left of Mama whispering in her ear.
“Thank you for loving me so much I promise I’ll try to be good.” “I always knew you were watching and praying for me. Tell God, I know when the Holy Spirit is teaching me and I saw three angels for sure.”
I promptly stood, still glaring at her lifeless, empty eyes turned and walked out into the waiting room. The family was in there loud, talking and laughing like the Bears had won the Super Bowl or something. I stood at the entrance of the doorway?
“Would somebody please take me home?”
They started their manipulation tactics saying why you leaving , don’t go, we all here together for a change and what about Mama.
“I want to go home.”
They kept talking and I was about ready to spark off .
I yelled real loud “I want to go home, would somebody please give me a ride home!”
The way I said it translated into fuck all of you motherfuckers quick and dirty, now take me home. Everybody got silent and just stared at me.
I then said under my breath “Fuck it, I'll catch a cab,” and walked out.
I heard my father speaking as the door was closing.
“Do you mind taking her home?”

Pretty Monster coming June 2008!

Pretty Monster Coming June 2008

Experience tears and laughter walking through the life and times of Tangie Waters, a resilient daddy’s girl who grew up in the suburbs of Chicago. An attention-grabbing tale of a young black woman’s determination to survive, guided by faith in God, and the wisdom of her grandparents. Despite her monstrous ego she struggles to be at peace, while faced with constant setbacks, family woes, and the complexity of being a single mother. Flowing through life with torrent music Pretty Monster is an alluring tale that speaks to young women from the inner city to the tree lined streets of the American suburbs.

MAn up or Bow down!

smile - do i really have go into detail on this one?

... HE said that I was the best girlfriend that he had ever had and that he couldn't handle what that meant... Just like that -fuck me, fuck the kids, fuck everything he's gone...

PrEtTy Monster coming June 2008

Rejection is as strong as love

... and both will get you killed!!!

It's New Year's morning, I had been in church, praising the New Year in up until one a.m. I had slept on the couch for a change and actually got some good sleep. I woke to the phone ringing. When I answered, I heard the words, "Tangie will you marry me?"
It took me a second to catch the voice. I thought to myself damn he's tripping.
"Well, good morning to you too str!..."
But before I could say anything else he went on to say.
"I can't get you out of my mind and my heart even though we haven't seen each other for a long time. I spent the night partying with my friends and I found my every other thought to be about you and wishing we could be together, so I called to ask if you would start the New Year off being mine. Will you marry me?
"I'm pregnant," I said, trying to move the conversation to a new topic.
After a long pause, he responded "But you didn't answer the question."

PrEtTy MoNsTeR - coming June 2008