MY ONLY BELOVED SON GRADUATED FROM MILLITARY SCHOOL
AND IS OFF TO COLLEGE!
Sunday, December 23, 2007
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Picture Me Rollin'
The count down has begun – in 7 days I will be taking the ride of my life…
I will be driving a 26 foot Penske truck from Savannah GA to Chicago, IL…
I didn’t really realize until now that this is going to be real adventure for me. I have driven moving trucks before however the drive never exceeded 50 miles. I really don’t know what to expect from the road or myself on this journey – I am sure I will have a fabulous tale to share afterwards!!!
When I moved to Savannah, I had a moving company take care of everything and they broke & lost every damn thing. So reverted back to "no one can do it better than me" – hell if I brake it, its okay because I bought it!
Say a prayer for a sista!!!
I will be driving a 26 foot Penske truck from Savannah GA to Chicago, IL…
I didn’t really realize until now that this is going to be real adventure for me. I have driven moving trucks before however the drive never exceeded 50 miles. I really don’t know what to expect from the road or myself on this journey – I am sure I will have a fabulous tale to share afterwards!!!
When I moved to Savannah, I had a moving company take care of everything and they broke & lost every damn thing. So reverted back to "no one can do it better than me" – hell if I brake it, its okay because I bought it!
Say a prayer for a sista!!!
Thursday, December 13, 2007
What seems to be crazy may be faith university
Zora Neal Hurston once said;
"there are years that ask questions and years that answer"
I have been in Savannah, GA for more than year – I came here site unseen stepping out on faith and believing that there was calling for me here.
I gave up my home, my high profile career, political clout, friends and family. Only to discover – Savannah SUCKS
I took strides to find the right and good in it and at every corner I met bullshit – I cant say it any other way. I started complaining and asking GOD WHY!!! He would lead me to such a dead and dry valley and how does this tie into my purpose.
EVEN THOUGH I COMPLAINED ALL THE DAY LONG AND SLEEPLESS NIGHTS I WAS BLESSED AND MY CHILDREN WERE BLESSED – BUT I WANTED OUT OF THE VALLEY! (I HAD MANNA FROM HEAVEN BUT WANTED MEAT – UNGRATEFUL ASS!)
As my prayer life grew stronger each day coping with a state that could easily be on another planet as things were so strange and impoverished. I made up my mind to leave… I refuse to bring the New Year in with my feets planted in Georgia!
I have a job offer in Chicago and an interview in Ohio on Monday! I am hoping for the Ohio gig believe it or not. I love and miss Chicago – but I’ll be close enough to visit and enjoy the things I miss most without actually living there!
I said all this to say faith is a journey that does not REQUIRE A SAFTY NET – GO FOR WHAT YOU WANT -
Do you know what you really, really, really want?
And if you got it would you be satisfied?!
I gave up my home, my high profile career, political clout, friends and family. Only to discover – Savannah SUCKS
I took strides to find the right and good in it and at every corner I met bullshit – I cant say it any other way. I started complaining and asking GOD WHY!!! He would lead me to such a dead and dry valley and how does this tie into my purpose.
EVEN THOUGH I COMPLAINED ALL THE DAY LONG AND SLEEPLESS NIGHTS I WAS BLESSED AND MY CHILDREN WERE BLESSED – BUT I WANTED OUT OF THE VALLEY! (I HAD MANNA FROM HEAVEN BUT WANTED MEAT – UNGRATEFUL ASS!)
As my prayer life grew stronger each day coping with a state that could easily be on another planet as things were so strange and impoverished. I made up my mind to leave… I refuse to bring the New Year in with my feets planted in Georgia!
I have a job offer in Chicago and an interview in Ohio on Monday! I am hoping for the Ohio gig believe it or not. I love and miss Chicago – but I’ll be close enough to visit and enjoy the things I miss most without actually living there!
I said all this to say faith is a journey that does not REQUIRE A SAFTY NET – GO FOR WHAT YOU WANT -
Do you know what you really, really, really want?
And if you got it would you be satisfied?!
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
December
The beginning of the end… always finds me in a contemplative state of mind. I am not one for New Year’s resolutions. However reflections should give birth to a new beginning. I want to give some love to the soldiers that have gone on in sweet December who in some way motivate me literally everyday to do better, love harder and to make motherhood a crown.
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December 7, 2001 –
Janai Mitchell age 10 – my cousin, my baby, my angel
Before I met you I was afraid of people that wore their infirmities. Although I had compassion and Godly love for them I didn’t understand that they may like barbeque and got aggravated by their siblings or little cousins. And that they could show love (with no pity) and knew when people were just no good!
Cerebral palsy!
Cerebral palsy (CP) is an umbrella term encompassing a group of non-progressive,[1] non-contagious diseases that cause physical disability in human development.
Cerebral refers to the affected area of the brain, the cerebrum (however the centers have not been perfectly localised and the disease most likely involves connections between the cortex and other parts of the brain such as the cerebellum) and palsy refers to disorder of movement. CP is caused by damage to the motor control centers of the young developing brain and can occur after birth...
But the doctor that escorted you into this condition is fine and his kids are healthy! Baby he didn’t mean to make you this way – I guess he helped you teach all that know you to love deeper, grown and learn… Heaven is glad to have you back home!
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December 10, 2005Richard Pryor age 65 – wow! And whoa!
When I wasn’t looking for you, you were all over the scene 8 tracks, albums, television, movies and touring. Telling stories that made me laugh until I just was slobbing and my back and stomach was cramping. I got you because I knew exactly who you were talking about…
When I started looking for you in some of the lowest days of my life, I found your pain and it wasn’t funny… you were not funny – you were in pain and I wondered about the rainbow and the promise that money would make life better – you proved that this is bullshit and I thank you for that!
Toast to when you could laugh, smile, and impersonate our unsung clown-soldiers who rocked the corner liquor stores, juke joints and sometimes our living rooms! And your favorite pass time SEX… I, like Rain admired you just because you were you and love doesn’t have to be deserved!
I think I know how Eddie feels!
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Speaking of clown!Last but not least to my uncle!
December -2005
Cleburn Lee Washington age 60 sumthin, I am not sure…
Your physical death was gratefully over shadowed by the death the icon Richard Pryor and the fact that I had buried yo ass a longtime ago. Thank you for making my life a living hell, for torturing me verbally and physically, for the disdain you had for my daddy and for raping our mother to say the least.
Why thank you! You gave me the greatest gift of all believe it or not! The more pain you brought to the table the more I pressed and the deeper I loved myself from the very beginning even as a child! God is so awesome. I knew I was special and I had a light you just couldn’t fucking stand. It even blinded you when i was sleeping. Many have envied that light, but especially you. It made you try to kill the one in you with alcohol and crack cocaine.
Is mental illness a complement or a fact?
I won’t be shocked if I get to heaven and see your spirit… only God can judge you and His mercy is for all!
The daughter you couldn’t love is having her first child in 2008 - I am grateful that he or she got to meet you in heaven and not on earth…
I am sure you are PEACEFUL – for now…
Is mental illness a complement or a fact?
I won’t be shocked if I get to heaven and see your spirit… only God can judge you and His mercy is for all!
The daughter you couldn’t love is having her first child in 2008 - I am grateful that he or she got to meet you in heaven and not on earth…
I am sure you are PEACEFUL – for now…
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HOW DID I FORGET THE LEDGEND!!!!
JAMES BROWN - 1933 TO 2006
YOU INSPIRED DADDY TO DANCE AND HE INSPIRED ME!
I STEPPED OUT OF MY HOTEL ROOM THE DAY AFTER CHRISTMAS AT THE NICKELODEON HOTEL, LOOKED DOWN AT THE NEWSPAPER AT MY DOOR AND SAW THAT THE GODFATHER OF SOUL HAD PASSED...
TURNED A PERFECT HOLIDAY SOUR!
Monday, November 26, 2007
Wake up got-damnit!!!!
_________________total lack of sleep may or may not be a good thing!______________
Getting on my way to the gig this morning, I realized that I was dress to dayam fly for my current place of employment. I try not to waste myself on this beat up ragged ass town in no shape form or fashion - ya dig. SO I peeled off my threads and put on the basic money gear for what is suppose to be an office enviroment and took my sweet ass time getting out the door.
Combed my babies hair made her breakfast and even took a moment to tickle her and tell her jokes about her profound genius which i discoved long before she could talk.
I got strong genes yau'll (lol).
But I digressed!
Dropped my baby off at the bus stop, gave her lunch money and a big kiss goodbye...
So I am tired as hell, its monday, still hung over from turkey and sh^%! SO while in traffic I attempt to think about my life and try to remember some thing to keep me focused for the second, minute, hour day and week! We forget way to easy the things that should be PRIORITY - right, right - SO dig it!
I remembered something my girl Teah said to me the other day.
She said "Boogie, "
I said "What?"
she said "Boogie"
I said YEYah...
- don't you miss the wake up call!
Now after I got to work and did the freindly - hey, great, fine, all right and ciao!
I thought about love and I think Al did or at least should have had this sentiment in mind when he wrote this song! Love doesn't create STRESS, FEAR or WORRY!
Bam!
Getting on my way to the gig this morning, I realized that I was dress to dayam fly for my current place of employment. I try not to waste myself on this beat up ragged ass town in no shape form or fashion - ya dig. SO I peeled off my threads and put on the basic money gear for what is suppose to be an office enviroment and took my sweet ass time getting out the door.
Combed my babies hair made her breakfast and even took a moment to tickle her and tell her jokes about her profound genius which i discoved long before she could talk.
I got strong genes yau'll (lol).
But I digressed!
Dropped my baby off at the bus stop, gave her lunch money and a big kiss goodbye...
So I am tired as hell, its monday, still hung over from turkey and sh^%! SO while in traffic I attempt to think about my life and try to remember some thing to keep me focused for the second, minute, hour day and week! We forget way to easy the things that should be PRIORITY - right, right - SO dig it!
I remembered something my girl Teah said to me the other day.
She said "Boogie, "
I said "What?"
she said "Boogie"
I said YEYah...
GOD DID NOT CREATE
STRESS, FEAR OR WORRY
baM just like that -
I woke the F*&$ UP!
- don't you miss the wake up call!
Now after I got to work and did the freindly - hey, great, fine, all right and ciao!
I thought about love and I think Al did or at least should have had this sentiment in mind when he wrote this song! Love doesn't create STRESS, FEAR or WORRY!
Bam!
If I gave you my love,
I tell you what I'd do
I'd expect a whole lotta love outta you
You gotta be good to me
I'm gonna be good to you
There's a whole lotta things you and I
Could do
Hey hey
Hey hey hey
Simply beautiful simply beautiful simply
Beautiful
Simply beautiful simply beautiful simply
Beauti..
Simply beautiful
Simply beautiful
Simply beautiful
Simply beautiful
What about the way you love me
And the way you squeeze me
Hey
Hey simply beautiful hey
And you get right down it
And the love is getting you through it
Simply beautiful [Repeat to end]
(less not forget the baby, baby, etc.)
Thursday, November 15, 2007
60 minutes! On point!!!!
I have been ahead of the curve by 20 years... Thank GOD for wisdom!
Sh**! What am I going to do at 40?
* * * * * * * * * * * * * ** * * * ** **60 Minutes * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * ** * * * * * * * * *
In case you missed it on 60 Minutes, this is what Andy Rooney thinks about women over 40: 60 Minutes Correspondent Andy Rooney (CBS)As I grow in age, I value women over 40 most of all.
Here are just a few reasons why:A woman over 40 will never wake you in the middle of the night and ask, "What are you thinking?" She doesn't care what you think. If a woman over 40 doesn't want to watch the game, she doesn't sit around whining about it. She does something she wants to do, and it's usually more interesting. Women over 40 are dignified. They seldom have a screaming match with you at the opera or in the middle of an expensive restaurant. Of course, if you deserve it, they won't hesitate to shoot you if they think they can get away with it. Older women are generous with praise, often undeserved. They know what it's like to be
unappreciated. Women get psychic as they age. You never have to confess your sins to a woman over 40. Once you get past a wrinkle or two, a woman over 40 is far sexier than her younger counterpart. Older women are forthright and honest. They'll tell you right off if you are a jerk if you are acting like one. You don't ever have to wonder where you stand with her. Yes, we praise women over 40 for a multitude of reasons. Unfortunately, it's not reciprocal. For every stunning, smart, well-coiffed, hot woman over 40, there is a bald, paunchy relic in yellow pants making a fool of himself with some 22-year old waitress. Ladies, I apologize. For all those men who say, "Why buy the cow when you can get the milk for free?", here's an update for you.
Nowadays 80% of women are against marriage. Why? Because women realize it's not worth buying an entire pig just to get a little sausage!
Sh**! What am I going to do at 40?
* * * * * * * * * * * * * ** * * * ** **60 Minutes * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * ** * * * * * * * * *
In case you missed it on 60 Minutes, this is what Andy Rooney thinks about women over 40: 60 Minutes Correspondent Andy Rooney (CBS)As I grow in age, I value women over 40 most of all.
Here are just a few reasons why:A woman over 40 will never wake you in the middle of the night and ask, "What are you thinking?" She doesn't care what you think. If a woman over 40 doesn't want to watch the game, she doesn't sit around whining about it. She does something she wants to do, and it's usually more interesting. Women over 40 are dignified. They seldom have a screaming match with you at the opera or in the middle of an expensive restaurant. Of course, if you deserve it, they won't hesitate to shoot you if they think they can get away with it. Older women are generous with praise, often undeserved. They know what it's like to be
unappreciated. Women get psychic as they age. You never have to confess your sins to a woman over 40. Once you get past a wrinkle or two, a woman over 40 is far sexier than her younger counterpart. Older women are forthright and honest. They'll tell you right off if you are a jerk if you are acting like one. You don't ever have to wonder where you stand with her. Yes, we praise women over 40 for a multitude of reasons. Unfortunately, it's not reciprocal. For every stunning, smart, well-coiffed, hot woman over 40, there is a bald, paunchy relic in yellow pants making a fool of himself with some 22-year old waitress. Ladies, I apologize. For all those men who say, "Why buy the cow when you can get the milk for free?", here's an update for you.
Nowadays 80% of women are against marriage. Why? Because women realize it's not worth buying an entire pig just to get a little sausage!
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
Getting it off your chest...
I have thrown my author hat into the arena of many great writers. I have just completed my first novel Pretty Monster. It is in the process of being published for 1st quarter 2008. I guess I should be excited but I am more blah than anything else. I didn’t want to write this first novel, I had to write it…
Abstract
Pretty Monster is the turbulent story of Tangy Raye Waters a resilience young girl who grew up in the suburbs of Chicago and her struggle to be at peace despite the trouble of family woes and her monstrous ego. Many life lessons learned from her grandparents and time led to her faith in God and the music never stopped.
It is a southern-urban expose of time and the plight of a young lady who struggles against the odds. A few readers that were privy to the really rough drafts stated that it reminded them of Biggie and PAC in regard to telling a story in a way that you can definitely feel and see the pain, struggle and joy. Others said it would be a wonderful film and compared it to Lakawana Blues (which I didn’t see until I was finished with it).
I am humbled by all the feedback I have received. I am trusting the world with a peace of me with and I look forward to whatever comes next. I have started my next novel which is a dirty tale – laughing out loud, I am going to enjoy writing the next two books…
Abstract
Pretty Monster is the turbulent story of Tangy Raye Waters a resilience young girl who grew up in the suburbs of Chicago and her struggle to be at peace despite the trouble of family woes and her monstrous ego. Many life lessons learned from her grandparents and time led to her faith in God and the music never stopped.
It is a southern-urban expose of time and the plight of a young lady who struggles against the odds. A few readers that were privy to the really rough drafts stated that it reminded them of Biggie and PAC in regard to telling a story in a way that you can definitely feel and see the pain, struggle and joy. Others said it would be a wonderful film and compared it to Lakawana Blues (which I didn’t see until I was finished with it).
I am humbled by all the feedback I have received. I am trusting the world with a peace of me with and I look forward to whatever comes next. I have started my next novel which is a dirty tale – laughing out loud, I am going to enjoy writing the next two books…
Monday, July 2, 2007
REPOST: I dont mean to be rude, but KISS my crA%$
This is a shot out to everybody that called, texted, emailed or IM'ed me to wish me a Happy Fathers Day. I feel as if you really dont know me which is why I have written my own obituary. I have not celebrated fathers day since my grandfather (daddy died in 1983)...
Nor do I appreciate people saying this to me for the following reasons.
1 - I am not a f***** man
2 - i do not fill the male role in my household, realtionship with my children or any other way
3 - I ain't never gonna be that pro woman that I can take a man place on anything
4 - I understand your point but it is stupid to me and unholy!
5 - Men dont give birth to children, do I look Masculine? Be honest, it will allow me go to the spa and work it out...
Again I say this is the stupiest shit ever and I know I have cussed serveral people out about this over the years and rebuked them for trying to speak a curse into my life. I guess the forgot, well here it is in writting...
11:19 AM - 6 Comments - 2 Kudos -
JusBKellz http://www.myspace.com/jusbkellzDate:
Jun 18, 2007 11:09 AM Subject: "Daddy's Little Girls" Body: Big props to Tyler for the positive image of what a down-to-earth, cool ass, hustling his ass off real Black Man is!
Tiffani
my deepest apologies.. REALLY didn't mean anything by that or towards your life. Was trippin, just like when you say don't give kudos to Santa because you work to take care of your kids. I love you and again i am sorry and pardon my ignorance on this subject. Call me ~the Diva
Posted by Tiffani on Monday, June 18, 2007 at 5:06 PM
Mahogany
silence china! you know i have been on a roll since friday night or was it thursday - hell call the riunite company and complain - lolspeaking of fathers... mom said this fathers day was one for the history books. i'd love to hear your version...smooches!ps: tell your family if they keep trippin they are uninvited to my funeral - it's gonna be a stone cold blast!!! (that's don corneilus code for da bomb, oops i mean off the chain, or off the hook, or whatever the kids are saying now-a-day!)peace!
Love To Smile: The Queen B
No, you don't take the place of a man. However, if men would truly be MEN and do what they are supposed to this controversy wouldn't have even presented itself in the first place.I *may* have included you in my text blast (all my days run together I can't remember). However, I mentioned that it was a greeting to all the "True Daddies" ... meaning those who do for their children, men or women. I agree with you that no woman could ever take the place of the male role as a father figure. Unfortunately, on account of those who aren't MEN certain gaps must be filled....this coming from one who played the Single Mommy role for a long enough portion of my life and hung it up for good. My experience was not that of all Mothers. I can proudly say that due to the shitty ass parents that the kid I was raising had at the time... I DID play the role of Mommy AND Daddy... and proudly take both titles for that time in my life... I'm just sayin'....I didn't mean any offense by it... simply a pat on the back if you will, a holding you high on a pedestal because you ARE doing a damn big thing. You're a Super Woman to me.... shall I list all of the accomplishments in addition to "Supah Mama"? : )I'm making a mental note of the blog though... won't do it again if I did it in error....
Posted by Love To Smile: The Queen B on Monday, June 18, 2007 at 11:35 PM
Mahogany
hey lorena - you did not send me a text this year and thank you... you can never fill the place of a man and I mean NEVER... you are right that if men were doing what they should it would not be an issue. but it is what it is... a man cannot be a mother even if he is a single father... i have friends in this situation and the pain is eveident in their children (a motherless child is worst than a fatherless one - in my opinion and experiecne). a woman can not be a father to her children she can be there and thats it - it is NEVER going to be the same thing and the childen for than MISSSING PART...I am not a super mother playing mommy and daddy - i am a tired ass women doing the best i can and praying that the scars on my children from NOT HAVING A FATHER OR MALE ROLE MODEL wont permanantly fuck there lives up. I see the damage everyday.I had a mom and a dad gowing up - each had different roles - one preson CANNOT FILL BOTH ROLES - PERIOD! It is a bibical curse and unGodly...i am not doing a big thing - i just stayed instead of leaving them too.i dont deserve a pedastal for doing what i am supose to do...being a parent is a thankless job - until its over!!!
Posted by Mahogany on Tuesday, June 19, 2007 at 10:16 AM
JusBKellz
Peace, Love, Unity and God (PLUG)I pray for restoration in your life today. You are and have been since I have known you been doing the damn thang! My apologies you are absolutely right!One
Nor do I appreciate people saying this to me for the following reasons.
1 - I am not a f***** man
2 - i do not fill the male role in my household, realtionship with my children or any other way
3 - I ain't never gonna be that pro woman that I can take a man place on anything
4 - I understand your point but it is stupid to me and unholy!
5 - Men dont give birth to children, do I look Masculine? Be honest, it will allow me go to the spa and work it out...
Again I say this is the stupiest shit ever and I know I have cussed serveral people out about this over the years and rebuked them for trying to speak a curse into my life. I guess the forgot, well here it is in writting...
11:19 AM - 6 Comments - 2 Kudos -
JusBKellz http://www.myspace.com/jusbkellzDate:
Jun 18, 2007 11:09 AM Subject: "Daddy's Little Girls" Body: Big props to Tyler for the positive image of what a down-to-earth, cool ass, hustling his ass off real Black Man is!
Tiffani
my deepest apologies.. REALLY didn't mean anything by that or towards your life. Was trippin, just like when you say don't give kudos to Santa because you work to take care of your kids. I love you and again i am sorry and pardon my ignorance on this subject. Call me ~the Diva
Posted by Tiffani on Monday, June 18, 2007 at 5:06 PM
Mahogany
silence china! you know i have been on a roll since friday night or was it thursday - hell call the riunite company and complain - lolspeaking of fathers... mom said this fathers day was one for the history books. i'd love to hear your version...smooches!ps: tell your family if they keep trippin they are uninvited to my funeral - it's gonna be a stone cold blast!!! (that's don corneilus code for da bomb, oops i mean off the chain, or off the hook, or whatever the kids are saying now-a-day!)peace!
Love To Smile: The Queen B
No, you don't take the place of a man. However, if men would truly be MEN and do what they are supposed to this controversy wouldn't have even presented itself in the first place.I *may* have included you in my text blast (all my days run together I can't remember). However, I mentioned that it was a greeting to all the "True Daddies" ... meaning those who do for their children, men or women. I agree with you that no woman could ever take the place of the male role as a father figure. Unfortunately, on account of those who aren't MEN certain gaps must be filled....this coming from one who played the Single Mommy role for a long enough portion of my life and hung it up for good. My experience was not that of all Mothers. I can proudly say that due to the shitty ass parents that the kid I was raising had at the time... I DID play the role of Mommy AND Daddy... and proudly take both titles for that time in my life... I'm just sayin'....I didn't mean any offense by it... simply a pat on the back if you will, a holding you high on a pedestal because you ARE doing a damn big thing. You're a Super Woman to me.... shall I list all of the accomplishments in addition to "Supah Mama"? : )I'm making a mental note of the blog though... won't do it again if I did it in error....
Posted by Love To Smile: The Queen B on Monday, June 18, 2007 at 11:35 PM
Mahogany
hey lorena - you did not send me a text this year and thank you... you can never fill the place of a man and I mean NEVER... you are right that if men were doing what they should it would not be an issue. but it is what it is... a man cannot be a mother even if he is a single father... i have friends in this situation and the pain is eveident in their children (a motherless child is worst than a fatherless one - in my opinion and experiecne). a woman can not be a father to her children she can be there and thats it - it is NEVER going to be the same thing and the childen for than MISSSING PART...I am not a super mother playing mommy and daddy - i am a tired ass women doing the best i can and praying that the scars on my children from NOT HAVING A FATHER OR MALE ROLE MODEL wont permanantly fuck there lives up. I see the damage everyday.I had a mom and a dad gowing up - each had different roles - one preson CANNOT FILL BOTH ROLES - PERIOD! It is a bibical curse and unGodly...i am not doing a big thing - i just stayed instead of leaving them too.i dont deserve a pedastal for doing what i am supose to do...being a parent is a thankless job - until its over!!!
Posted by Mahogany on Tuesday, June 19, 2007 at 10:16 AM
JusBKellz
Peace, Love, Unity and God (PLUG)I pray for restoration in your life today. You are and have been since I have known you been doing the damn thang! My apologies you are absolutely right!One
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
REPOST: How do you get OFF!
Oooooohhhh last night i was so restless. I went to bed twice once at 6:30 to no avail and again at 8:30. By 10:30 I jumped up put on some jeans and a tank top snatch a few $ and my keys. I was going to get off!!! I was to restless to rest so I had to get me sumthin to take the edge off!
I grabbed a beer, went threw my Cd's grabbed the one thing that help me "rise above it all or i would drown in my own shit!!!"
I rode thru the streets of Chicago looking at the breath taking skyline on a 80 degree night, listening to Maggott Brain (michael hampton/funkadelic/george clinton) blaring louder than the law allows!!!!!!! and i got off! (smile - I know what u were thinking - freakin - LOL!!!)
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LET'S KEEP IT GOING!
How do u get off!
I grabbed a beer, went threw my Cd's grabbed the one thing that help me "rise above it all or i would drown in my own shit!!!"
I rode thru the streets of Chicago looking at the breath taking skyline on a 80 degree night, listening to Maggott Brain (michael hampton/funkadelic/george clinton) blaring louder than the law allows!!!!!!! and i got off! (smile - I know what u were thinking - freakin - LOL!!!)
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LET'S KEEP IT GOING!
How do u get off!
Sunday, April 29, 2007
A Broken Heart Leaks Issues!!!
Broken Records
IT TAKES A FOOL TO LEARN DAT LOVE DON'T LOVE NO ONE!
LOOKS LIKE ANOTHER LOVE TKO...
I TOLD MY FRIEND MAYBE YOU NEVER BEEN IN LOVE LIKE I BEEN IN LOVE...
TOAST TO THE OTHER MAN AND THE BETTER PLANS...
ANOTHER ONE BITES THE DUST!
FOR ALL THE LOVERS OUT THERE KEEP YO BREAK UP RECORDS ON STAND BY!
I PRAY YAU'LL CAN REBOUND AND BE UNBREAKABLE!!!
FO REAL!
LOOKS LIKE ANOTHER LOVE TKO...
I TOLD MY FRIEND MAYBE YOU NEVER BEEN IN LOVE LIKE I BEEN IN LOVE...
TOAST TO THE OTHER MAN AND THE BETTER PLANS...
ANOTHER ONE BITES THE DUST!
FOR ALL THE LOVERS OUT THERE KEEP YO BREAK UP RECORDS ON STAND BY!
I PRAY YAU'LL CAN REBOUND AND BE UNBREAKABLE!!!
FO REAL!
shocking email from a real man!
Lord God hear my prayer. Give me your strength to be honorable and just Let me Walk the path of the Warrior defender of the righteous. Let me over come my fears, both personal, professional, and spiritual. Stand with me as I try to overcome the desire to show the strength of my fist, when I should show the strength of my will. Help me overcome the pitfalls in life and the desire to give up on my search for the love that seems to have abandoned this world. Help me to not fall victim to the callous attitudes my brothers have towards love, and the bond between a man and a woman. Show me Lord how to be true to the woman that you will someday bless me with. To always remember that love is a blessing that should not be taken for granted or abused. As I walk this earth alone help me to keep the faith in the belief that one day you will bring into my life that woman who will be my love, and my life .Help me oh Lord to never put my woman, second to anything or anyone other than you. Help me to see that there are more things in life than the desires of the flesh. Help me to be strong when the search for you blessing sometimes leads to heartache. Lord help me to remember that there is joy in companionship, and the pleasure of understanding that only comes from the bonds of finding a person that completes you body mind and soul.
These things I ask of you of Lord.
Amen
Now i am sure he is going to act crazy in the long run - but at least he trying - God bless him! He said this is one of his daily prayers...
He gon' be alright
These things I ask of you of Lord.
Amen
Now i am sure he is going to act crazy in the long run - but at least he trying - God bless him! He said this is one of his daily prayers...
He gon' be alright
Teddy P and Marvin Gaye
u know that i just love music and movies! my whole life pretty much revolves around a song. I am so fired up - the rights to the marvin gaye story have finally been sold!!! The same cat that did trading places (the 80's eddie murphy movie - a fellow negro) owns the rights and is putting on the production. They are in the process of developing the script, etc.etc.etc...
The script for the teddy p story (which is not a tell all book about his life) is done and moving on. It is a reflection of his life and struggles and handling/maintaining the up and downs. they are having a big event for him in june in his home town philidelphia. i read his book "truly blessed" a while ago and it was really interesting...now i have to go there for a minute, one it is no one buisness and is glossed over inthe book about the allegeded blow job that caused his auto mobile accidents back in the day. in my opinoin it really to bad that a lil head brought such devastation. it changed my life - LOL - AND THE LESSON IS DONT LET PASSENGERS GET DOWN LIKE DAT WHILE DRIVING AND I HAVE A MUCH SMALLER CAR NOW-A-DAYS - LOL now that could be the problem cars use to be the size of king size beds on the inside back inthe day - he strecthed out and got to comfortable, cruise control and.......... anyway!
Then of course the James Brown movie is pending it will be done before he is buried properly.
i absolutly love these icons and cant wait to see thier movies (hoping they are done well!) THEY ALL BETTER BE GOOD!!!
robert townsend is in chicago - working a movie, if my asss had stayed in cold and snowy chicago, i would be working with him again...(dammit, i deleted the email withthe name of it) but its okay everything happens for a reason...AND SEGWAY!
my book is almost finished and i am almost feeling good about the whole experince. i'd love to GIVE everyone a copy but uh, that would kinda defeat the purpose! i really hope somebody enjoys it and learns something about their own soul in reading the story of ms tangy the psycho-baby!
2008 is going to be a big year for black movies and hopefully for me!
The script for the teddy p story (which is not a tell all book about his life) is done and moving on. It is a reflection of his life and struggles and handling/maintaining the up and downs. they are having a big event for him in june in his home town philidelphia. i read his book "truly blessed" a while ago and it was really interesting...now i have to go there for a minute, one it is no one buisness and is glossed over inthe book about the allegeded blow job that caused his auto mobile accidents back in the day. in my opinoin it really to bad that a lil head brought such devastation. it changed my life - LOL - AND THE LESSON IS DONT LET PASSENGERS GET DOWN LIKE DAT WHILE DRIVING AND I HAVE A MUCH SMALLER CAR NOW-A-DAYS - LOL now that could be the problem cars use to be the size of king size beds on the inside back inthe day - he strecthed out and got to comfortable, cruise control and.......... anyway!
Then of course the James Brown movie is pending it will be done before he is buried properly.
i absolutly love these icons and cant wait to see thier movies (hoping they are done well!) THEY ALL BETTER BE GOOD!!!
robert townsend is in chicago - working a movie, if my asss had stayed in cold and snowy chicago, i would be working with him again...(dammit, i deleted the email withthe name of it) but its okay everything happens for a reason...AND SEGWAY!
my book is almost finished and i am almost feeling good about the whole experince. i'd love to GIVE everyone a copy but uh, that would kinda defeat the purpose! i really hope somebody enjoys it and learns something about their own soul in reading the story of ms tangy the psycho-baby!
2008 is going to be a big year for black movies and hopefully for me!
Daddy's Girl
Hey yau'll more on the topic from the previous blog...
I got my thoughts together - lol
Old boys vs men is better language:
old boys - suffer from a lot mainly, arrested development and/or poor or no male influnence. so they will likely tell you that they are a man beciase there are trying or failing in ACTING like a man. Now don't get it twisted this has nothing to be with being gay - a lot of gay men are more manly that those that are ACTING like men. ANd those that are ACTING like men are not always gay....
Next we have men - they don't have find it nessesary to tell you that they are a man. they do the man thing which has nothing to do with being macho or thuggish believe it or not!!! a man is committed to his word and has found a deeper love and level of manhood inside him that he is willing to die for.
[ Now i am not male bashing - so dont come at me like that - because this also is the script for many women (right, right)
Now back to my point...]
i am fortunate to have had a man that was not my biological father come into my life at 3mths old and raise me and i was "his gurl" - and i am still spoil but not rotten as i use to be - lol
his qualities included but were not limited to:
1. going to work FAITHFULLY
2. Came home FATHFULLY with his whole check
3. HAd his own interest and friends that NEVER COMPRIMISED his relationship with his wife and me his daughter.
4. He said what he meant and meant what he said - everytime he open his mouth. HE KEPT HIS WORD IN SHORT ORDER AND LONG TERM (His word meant something - you could count on and depend on his word ALWAYS!) Now he joked and played and had a blast with us - we were always doing something, but when he said things and did things that affected our family he was taken seriously by everyone - the first time he said it.
5. Nothing was to good for his gurls, he would move heaven and hell to keep his word to us and make sure we had things that made us comfortable. His presence made us feel safe at all times.
Now i dont remember ever saying i love you or hearing him say it to me - but he showed it everyday in so many ways.and i hope i did the same - even tho he has been dead for a long time it is well in my soul because i know my daddy loved me!
now i am old school and i remember when people use to say old boy and old girl. I am going to bring that back into my vocabulary. so please recognize when i call someone old boy or old girl - it is not a complement but an acknowlegdement of thier pain and their need to grow into a deeper human being.
i look forward to hearing your thoughts on this one!
Hollar
I got my thoughts together - lol
Old boys vs men is better language:
old boys - suffer from a lot mainly, arrested development and/or poor or no male influnence. so they will likely tell you that they are a man beciase there are trying or failing in ACTING like a man. Now don't get it twisted this has nothing to be with being gay - a lot of gay men are more manly that those that are ACTING like men. ANd those that are ACTING like men are not always gay....
Next we have men - they don't have find it nessesary to tell you that they are a man. they do the man thing which has nothing to do with being macho or thuggish believe it or not!!! a man is committed to his word and has found a deeper love and level of manhood inside him that he is willing to die for.
[ Now i am not male bashing - so dont come at me like that - because this also is the script for many women (right, right)
Now back to my point...]
i am fortunate to have had a man that was not my biological father come into my life at 3mths old and raise me and i was "his gurl" - and i am still spoil but not rotten as i use to be - lol
his qualities included but were not limited to:
1. going to work FAITHFULLY
2. Came home FATHFULLY with his whole check
3. HAd his own interest and friends that NEVER COMPRIMISED his relationship with his wife and me his daughter.
4. He said what he meant and meant what he said - everytime he open his mouth. HE KEPT HIS WORD IN SHORT ORDER AND LONG TERM (His word meant something - you could count on and depend on his word ALWAYS!) Now he joked and played and had a blast with us - we were always doing something, but when he said things and did things that affected our family he was taken seriously by everyone - the first time he said it.
5. Nothing was to good for his gurls, he would move heaven and hell to keep his word to us and make sure we had things that made us comfortable. His presence made us feel safe at all times.
Now i dont remember ever saying i love you or hearing him say it to me - but he showed it everyday in so many ways.and i hope i did the same - even tho he has been dead for a long time it is well in my soul because i know my daddy loved me!
now i am old school and i remember when people use to say old boy and old girl. I am going to bring that back into my vocabulary. so please recognize when i call someone old boy or old girl - it is not a complement but an acknowlegdement of thier pain and their need to grow into a deeper human being.
i look forward to hearing your thoughts on this one!
Hollar
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