Go Baby!

MY ONLY BELOVED SON GRADUATED FROM MILLITARY SCHOOL

AND IS OFF TO COLLEGE!

Picture Me Rollin'

The count down has begun – in 7 days I will be taking the ride of my life…
I will be driving a 26 foot Penske truck from Savannah GA to Chicago, IL…
I didn’t really realize until now that this is going to be real adventure for me. I have driven moving trucks before however the drive never exceeded 50 miles. I really don’t know what to expect from the road or myself on this journey – I am sure I will have a fabulous tale to share afterwards!!!

When I moved to Savannah, I had a moving company take care of everything and they broke & lost every damn thing. So reverted back to "no one can do it better than me" – hell if I brake it, its okay because I bought it!

Say a prayer for a sista!!!

What seems to be crazy may be faith university

Zora Neal Hurston once said;

"there are years that ask questions and years that answer"

I have been in Savannah, GA for more than year – I came here site unseen stepping out on faith and believing that there was calling for me here.

I gave up my home, my high profile career, political clout, friends and family. Only to discover – Savannah SUCKS

I took strides to find the right and good in it and at every corner I met bullshit – I cant say it any other way. I started complaining and asking GOD WHY!!! He would lead me to such a dead and dry valley and how does this tie into my purpose.

EVEN THOUGH I COMPLAINED ALL THE DAY LONG AND SLEEPLESS NIGHTS I WAS BLESSED AND MY CHILDREN WERE BLESSED – BUT I WANTED OUT OF THE VALLEY! (I HAD MANNA FROM HEAVEN BUT WANTED MEAT – UNGRATEFUL ASS!)

As my prayer life grew stronger each day coping with a state that could easily be on another planet as things were so strange and impoverished. I made up my mind to leave… I refuse to bring the New Year in with my feets planted in Georgia!

I have a job offer in Chicago and an interview in Ohio on Monday! I am hoping for the Ohio gig believe it or not. I love and miss Chicago – but I’ll be close enough to visit and enjoy the things I miss most without actually living there!


I said all this to say faith is a journey that does not REQUIRE A SAFTY NET – GO FOR WHAT YOU WANT -

Do you know what you really, really, really want?
And if you got it would you be satisfied?!

December

The beginning of the end… always finds me in a contemplative state of mind. I am not one for New Year’s resolutions. However reflections should give birth to a new beginning. I want to give some love to the soldiers that have gone on in sweet December who in some way motivate me literally everyday to do better, love harder and to make motherhood a crown.

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December 7, 2001 –
Janai Mitchell age 10 – my cousin, my baby, my angel
Before I met you I was afraid of people that wore their infirmities. Although I had compassion and Godly love for them I didn’t understand that they may like barbeque and got aggravated by their siblings or little cousins. And that they could show love (with no pity) and knew when people were just no good!

Cerebral palsy!
Cerebral palsy (CP) is an umbrella term encompassing a group of non-progressive,[1] non-contagious diseases that cause physical disability in human development.
Cerebral refers to the affected area of the brain, the cerebrum (however the centers have not been perfectly localised and the disease most likely involves connections between the cortex and other parts of the brain such as the cerebellum) and palsy refers to disorder of movement. CP is caused by damage to the motor control centers of the young developing brain and can occur after birth...

But the doctor that escorted you into this condition is fine and his kids are healthy! Baby he didn’t mean to make you this way – I guess he helped you teach all that know you to love deeper, grown and learn… Heaven is glad to have you back home!


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December 10, 2005
Richard Pryor age 65 – wow! And whoa!
When I wasn’t looking for you, you were all over the scene 8 tracks, albums, television, movies and touring. Telling stories that made me laugh until I just was slobbing and my back and stomach was cramping. I got you because I knew exactly who you were talking about…

When I started looking for you in some of the lowest days of my life, I found your pain and it wasn’t funny… you were not funny – you were in pain and I wondered about the rainbow and the promise that money would make life better – you proved that this is bullshit and I thank you for that!

Toast to when you could laugh, smile, and impersonate our unsung clown-soldiers who rocked the corner liquor stores, juke joints and sometimes our living rooms! And your favorite pass time SEX… I, like Rain admired you just because you were you and love doesn’t have to be deserved!

I think I know how Eddie feels!

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Speaking of clown!
Last but not least to my uncle!
December -2005
Cleburn Lee Washington age 60 sumthin, I am not sure…
Your physical death was gratefully over shadowed by the death the icon Richard Pryor and the fact that I had buried yo ass a longtime ago. Thank you for making my life a living hell, for torturing me verbally and physically, for the disdain you had for my daddy and for raping our mother to say the least.

Why thank you! You gave me the greatest gift of all believe it or not! The more pain you brought to the table the more I pressed and the deeper I loved myself from the very beginning even as a child! God is so awesome. I knew I was special and I had a light you just couldn’t fucking stand. It even blinded you when i was sleeping. Many have envied that light, but especially you. It made you try to kill the one in you with alcohol and crack cocaine.

Is mental illness a complement or a fact?
I won’t be shocked if I get to heaven and see your spirit… only God can judge you and His mercy is for all!

The daughter you couldn’t love is having her first child in 2008 - I am grateful that he or she got to meet you in heaven and not on earth…
I am sure you are PEACEFUL – for now…

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HOW DID I FORGET THE LEDGEND!!!!

JAMES BROWN - 1933 TO 2006

YOU INSPIRED DADDY TO DANCE AND HE INSPIRED ME!

I STEPPED OUT OF MY HOTEL ROOM THE DAY AFTER CHRISTMAS AT THE NICKELODEON HOTEL, LOOKED DOWN AT THE NEWSPAPER AT MY DOOR AND SAW THAT THE GODFATHER OF SOUL HAD PASSED...

TURNED A PERFECT HOLIDAY SOUR!